Saturday, April 11, 2009

Doubly Blessed

Blissfully ignorant. It is a phrase that I have used before to describe how the majority of women go through pregnancies. That is how I was until 21 weeks pregnant. I still stuggle when I see pregnant women, or women with infants. To me, they don't even realize what a precious gift they have. BUT today I found out of an amazing couple that finally got their precious gift, twice.

As rare as pProm is, my cousin Marc's wife Wynn also suffered from this condition while pregnant with their son Owen. Unfortunately he only lived for five hours, but this broadened my mother's knowledge of the condition, which in the end, helped me realize that I did NOT have to terminate Brody.

After losing Owen, Marc and Wynn decided to adopt. Along the road they suffered many different dissapointments. Times when they thought they would bring a baby home, circumstances prohibited this. FINALLY they were just blessed to adopt twins :) They now have a boy and a girl at home, which I know they will cherish more than anything. I cant imagine what that feels like to finally have a breathing, crying, hungry child of my own to hold in my arms- they must be ecstatic!

Anyways, I felt I should share this. I couldn't be happier for Marc and Wynn and their two new blessings they finally got to bring home.

Thursday, April 2, 2009

A Rainy Trip to Florida

Riley holding on to his cousin Brody's bear.

After completing a highly anticipated trip to Florida, I am currently on my flight home with my mom. Now don’t get too worried- I’m typing in word, then will copy and paste later on. Our time there was wonderful, but rainy. We had one sunny day the entire time there, but it was never actually warm enough to put a bathing suit on and get a tan. Other than that I had a blast! I was very nervous and apprehensive about going at first. Since Brody’s passing I have relied so heavily on Jeremy for emotional support, so I was very worried that I would not be able to make it a week without him. He has learned how to comfort me and handle my breakdowns, and I didn’t know how I would be able to handle it if he wasn’t there to comfort me. I was also very anxious about seeing my nephew, Riley, for the first time. Brody was born just a mere two days after Riley was, so it was very bittersweet to see him. When I found out that I was pregnant the same time as my sister, I couldn’t help but imagine our children growing up together, being the same age. So the fact that Riley was there and Brody wasn’t was very heartbreaking to me. I know though that these two had been conspiring together before they were even born, so I know that Riley has a wonderful angel that will always be watching over him. Like most “firsts” I have experienced so far, the anticipation is far worse than the actual event itself. I loved seeing Riley, holding him, making him laugh, and seeing his smile. He is adorable, and has a wonderful mother taking care of him. It is just unfortunate that they don’t live closer! L Aside from the rain, we made the most of our trip. If life gives you lemons, make lemonade- right? It was so great to spend some time with my sister and my mom- and to take my mind of the everyday stressors. What is better than shopping, nice dinners, facials, and boat trips with your mom and sister? Not much. We laughed, we cried, we gossiped- things only girls can do together. We used to be the majority in our house, and now that we are separated, we live with all men…so it’s nice to get out and do girl things every now and then. I am ready to be home now, though. I miss my family. I miss my Peanut, Kiwi, and Snickers greeting me at the door. I miss Jeremy’s hugs and comfort. I miss Layne and Chase’s unending energy and joy for life. So although I had an amazing time with my beautiful mom and sister- I’m ready to come home!