Thursday, January 22, 2009

Finally an update and some good news!

I know it has been a long while since I have written, Im so sorry! I guess I just figured that everyone would stop reading once we had nothing left to root for. I was wrong! I have heard from multiple people that I need to keep writing, so I will try not to dissapoint.
Good news finally came on Brody's two month angelversary (Jan 12) when Jeremy and I got engaged! I kept thinking that he might ask me on our romantic day to the spa and out to eat at the spagetti warehouse, and then our snowboarding trip up to the lake for new years, then I thought maybe Christmas. After that I had kind of given up hope. I think he wanted to catch me off guard because he asked me on a Monday night, at the house, after we got done making homemade pizzas together. He got down on one knee and asked if I would marry him (he even said please!) I asked if he was serious, and when he said yes, I said yes! I would like to believe that this man has seen me at my all time low of my life, and he still loves me so much and wants to marry me. I have known hes the one for a while, but it was very reassuring when he would tell me how beautiful I was every day that I was on bedrest. Even when I hadnt showered for days at a time, or when I blew up like a balloon from the IV and steroids, or when my face broke out worse than an eighth grade boy! He is certainly a wonderful guy that I am so excited to spend the rest of my life with.
As far as everything else in my life, it is going fairly well. Grief is a tricky little thing that sneaks up on you when you least expect it. Amazingly I made it through the holidays with a breaze, it was when all the commotion stopped that I was a bit of a mess. I did not see that coming! I saw a quote this week that says it all about grief "You don’t get over it, you just get through it. You don’t get by it, because you can’t get around it. It doesn’t get better; it just changes. Everyday…Grief puts on a new face…." -Wendy Feireisen. I just want to really thank everyone for reading this blog and getting the word out about Brody. I really feel that through this blog people became very attatched to him and his fight for life. I miss him more and more each day, but when I hear about the people his life has touched I am just the most proud mother in the world. Even though he only lived two hours, I still look at his life as such a miracle.


Carly Nicole Elliotte My Micro Preemie said...

Congrats on getting engaged! Have you set a date yet? Thinking of you while you grieve your son. Jan 7 made our 2 month mark with our 2nd daughter Hannah. March 9 will make our 1 year mark with our firrst daughter Carly.

Please do keep writting, it's a great outlet.


E and K Rausch said...

I found your blog through Rachels blog. I gave birth to my son Kenner on November 13, 2008 and he lived for 2 hours and 10 min. I was 22 and 4 days pregnant. My heart aches for you, as I understand what you are going though. keep strong and hang in there. Congrats on the engagement.