Friday, November 14, 2008

An explanation, memorial times...


I wanted to write to everyone to let them in on what happened, and how we are doing. Sorry if everything doesn't make much sense, I am still very out of it. Wednesday everything was going along as normal when my nurse came in to check my vitals around 4:30 pm. During this time I had gotten up to go to the bathroom and lost a lot of blood. Thankfully she was in there with me to know that something wasn't right. Slowly I began cramping up until I was in the worst pain of my entire life. Jeremy came in, they did an ultrasound and realized that my placenta was tearing away from my uterus (placental abruption). This is a process that is far more painful than actual labor, you have no idea the kind of pain I was in, it was terrible. Due to the fact that this was an emergency c-section, I was not able to be awake for surgery, and Jeremy was not allowed to be in the room. At 5:54 pm our little Brody Jason was born. They fought very hard for his life, but he passed away at 7:55 pm. 2 hours and 1 minute our little boy blessed this world. His lungs just weren't developed enough. Unfortunately I was not awake for any of this, but I don't know if I would have been able to see my son go through all that anyways. Later on that night the NICU brought him down so we could spend some time with him and hold him. I will never forget the time I spent with him. He was by far the most beautiful little baby I have ever seen, and he looked so very peaceful. I will never understand why any of this happened, and I hate the phrase "everything happens for a reason" that doesn't make the pain go away. I fought so hard for Brody, and would do it all again for the moments that I got to hold him. I miss him so much. This is so very hard, and no parents should ever have to go through something like this.

We are going to have a memorial service for Brody at 11 am on Tuesday in Waterville at Peinert Funeral Home. They are located right behind the McDonalds on the Anthony Wayne Trail (St Rt 24). Here is their website if you have any questions http://www.funeralplan.com/peinertfuneralhome/waterville . The service will be from 11-12, the first half hour will be open casket for those who would like to see Brody, and the second half hour will be closed casket for those who would be too upset to see him. Directly after we will have a small service to bury Brody at the Wakeman Cemetery (right up the road). Jeremy and I will hold a small gathering afterwards at our home for food and visitors. We would love to see you there to help us through this hard time in our lives. Brody had many people thinking about him and praying for him, so it would be great to see the little guy you have been reading about and praying for.

Like I said, no parent should have to go through something like this. This is very hard for all of us, and we thank you very much for your support.

6 comments:

Ashley †Andrew's Angel Mommy† said...

Abby,
I'm soo very sorry for you loss. I know the pain that you feel, and you are right no one should ever have to go through that. Brody is such a handsome little boy. You're in my prayers.

Jennifer said...

You are right. He's is a beautiful little boy. You and your family will be in my prayers.

Rashel and A.D. said...

Abby,

I'm so so sorry for your loss! I'm working at St.V's in Indy, and your story is more familiar than it ever should be! I want you to know I'm praying for you and your family. May God send peace your way! Love you girl!

Toni said...

Abby, I am so sorry for your loss of Brody. No parent should have to burry thier children and its said to say that some of us have been asked to do so.
I want you to know that your not alone and that we are here for you.
(((Hugs)))
Toni (from PROM Queens)

amymae85 said...

Hi Abbey and Jeremy-

I only met you a few months ago for a very short time at Heather and Matt's wedding. Heather informed me of what happened and I felt compelled to send my condolences. It cannot be easy experiencing a loss such as yours. You are in my thoughts and I hope that the both of you will have the strength to lean on each other as well as friends and family to get though this terrible time.

Sincerest wishes,
Amy Ballweg

Christine said...

What a beautiful son. I am so sorry for your loss. May God surround you with his love right now and always.